One evening, I was alone, weary, and exhausted. I was in the midst of extensive traveling, disconnected from friends and family. I had flown home for the evening, but it seemed like nobody noticed. People were used to me being gone. It was late at night, and I began arguing with God.
'I'm out there working hard. I'm lonely. I need to know someone cares. You've told me to tell you what I need, and tonight. God, I particularly need the presence of male energy. I need a friend, someone I can trust to care about me in a nonsexual, nonexploitive way. I need to be held. Now, where are you?"
I lay down on the couch and closed my eyes. I was too tired to do anything but let go.
The telephone rang minutes later. It was a former colleague who had since become my friend. "Hey, kid," he said. "You sound really tired and needy. Stay right where you are. I'm going to drive out and give you a foot rub. It sounds exactly like what you need."
Half an hour later, he knocked on my door. He brought a small bottle of oil with him, and gently massaged my feet, gave me a hug, told me how much he cared about me, then left.
I smiled. I had received exactly what I asked for. It is safe to trust God.
Today, I will remember God cares about what I need, especially if I do.
Melody Beattie ©
"This is the spiritual meaning of intimacy: growth inward, past our mask and fears and recklessness,to the sacred place where we are naked before God and each other."
Marianne Williamson
AA Thought of the Day / By going back in our own drinking histories, we could show that years before we realized it we were out of control, that our drinking even then was no mere habit, that it was indeed the beginning of a fatal progression. / 12 & 12, p. 23
There are numerous benefits to having less on your mind at any given moment.
The first has to do with the way you'll feel. As the sheer volume of data,
information, planning, worries, figuring out, and wondering is reduced, even
slightly, you will feel as though you've just stepped out of a dark cave and
into the sunlight. You'll feel a sense of spaciousness, lightness, and
freedom. You'll also become less tense and reactive. Because your mind will be
quieter, you won't feel the impulse to "jump" at everything that goes wrong
or is unexpected, or overanalyze every thought regarding the slightest hitch
in your plans or expectations. You'll be able to pick and choose which
thoughts to give significance to, which ones to honor with your attention,
and which ones to attach less significance to, or to simply drop or dismiss.
Richard Carlson
We can now step forth from behind our masks and take the risk to be real, to express our joys, our fears, our insecurities, our love, our hopes, and our dreams. I am free to be me! I can allow myself to be spontaneous. I can let myself be real and feel my feelings, express the truth as I see it in the present moment, and let my love for life radiate from my being, expressed in my thoughts, words, and actions. Trust yourself. You are an innocent, joyful being. Within you are the seeds of joy, happiness, and success.
Marie T. Russell
“Desire was put into your heart by the Creator to bring you to the point of surrender: the surrender of all your lesser desires and the embracing of your one true desire. What is that desire? Look into your heart. You will find it there.”
Greg Barrette
"We often spend so much time coping with problems along our path that we only have a dim or even inaccurate view of what's really important to us."
Peter Senge
“Heaven is here, and it’s available for everybody, but we need to have the eyes to perceive it.”
Don Miguel Ruiz
“If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our whole life would change.”
Buddha
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
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